i hate myself ...

i hate myself for my bz-body ness ...
i hate it when i'm good at stalking people online, on fb to be specific ...
i hate it when i found her ..
and now?
i fucking know her name.
CCB
and i'm damn fking emo now.
and my itunes is playing this same old song over and over and over and over again ..
omfg. i'm using itunes. fuck. i'm so messed up.
I JUST WANNA LET THINGS GOOO
and i will let u go.
fuck. PHUI KUAN. stop this shit nowwwwww!

EDIT: i took me a nap and a chat with eric to remove my emoness. eric is right. i deserve someone who can provide me undevided love. and i guess tht is the only thing i can't get from u. i wish u both the best in future. =) lucky u.treasure her.