emo

to some people, most people
i appear as a girl from a moderate family with quite stable financial support
maybe from the way i wear, maybe the car i drive
when actually, i'm just different from that layer of misleading coat

my parents struggle very very very hard just to give their children life thats a lil more better
yes, i'm studying at a private college
yes, i drive a suv
but i'm not proud of what have now.
i don't want pleasure that needs to pay with my parent's hard work

i am thinking. thinking real hard right now
should i continue going to u.s?
i mean, i can always do local and stay local
though i really wanna go u.s and marry david
okay, that was lame.
i don't wanna stay local. i wanna go far far away from here
because i always believe by staying away from m'sia
i'll be able to give my parents much better life
i always have visuals of getting them a mansion
supporting them to tour around the world
use and eat the finest things
they deserve it more than i do thats for sure


should i stay local?
i don't want to use money that they have been earning drop by drop like pipe water
should i continue adp?
mommy said there might be a chance i can't fly next spring.
how?