jasminekpk

2010-10-16T02:32:00.002+08:00

Sensei,, what should I do?

How can I not feel this loneliness, fear and sense of insecurities that no one seems to understand?

The inner battle within me is fierce, between my ego and right mind. But who knows? Who cares?

Who fucking cares?

2010-08-15T08:46:00.003+08:00

1st day after the truth, sunny

Its the first morning after I saw that post. I woke up with a massive gastric. Just like the times when my grandmother past away. I just realised everytime I have gastric, it is because he made me so sad that it gives my stomach a tornado.

I am much stronger than I thought I will be. Somehow, after seeing that post, besides feeling that real big pinch, there was a sense of relief too. I always tell people around me, when you love someone, your wish is not to be with him or her, but to wish for his or her every happiness. Knowing that he is happy with her, does gives me a sense of relief.

Exactly 3 days ago, I chanted alone at home. For the first time, I broke down and cried in front of the Gohonzon. The first time I cry this hard since Wilson. I told the gohonzon how hard it is for me to go through this alone. I told the Gohonzon how difficult it is for me to watch him with another girl. I told the Gohonzon how much I still love him and miss him. I kept chanting, as tears continuously filled my eyes and roll down my cheeks.

"Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo, Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo, Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo ..."

I kept chanting. I want the three of us to be happy. A leader told me, for this to happen to him, her and me, it is because we share the same karma. I started taking this seriously, because I do not want to go through any break ups anymore; I don't want to leave the one I love anymore.

Tears keep flooding my eyes. It was extremely difficult for me to chant properly as I was sobbing. I then told myself, I MUST chant for the happiness for the three of us; we MUST all be happy! For the first time, I took up the courage to face this pain.

It wasn't easy. It wasn't easy at all to chant for the one you love to be happy with another person. But, the only thing that kept me going, is the picture that all three of us are happy, no matter whom we are with. It wasn't easy.

I chanted for 1 whole hour, with tears rolling off my eyes uncontrollably. But deep in my heart, I know these are not all sad tears. Its the tears of hope, the hope for everyone's happiness. One might find this riddiculous to create such delusion. It is not delusion. It is not an excuse to make myself feel better.

Its a genuine wish from deep within my heart. And I know it is only through this Buddhism I am able to do so. It is only through this Buddhism, I am able to chant for everyone's happiness.

I agree with my idol, Miss Seko Ong. "We must not give up simply because sometimes what we reeive is not according to our expectations. We must press on, reflect, take action, review and then move on. .... Remember, when life stagnates, it sickens!"

Time and again, through practicing this Buddhism, I get to see and reveal other's true colour. I am slowly seeing his true colours, and mine too. Not all are pleasant to be accepted, but not all are that bad.

There are so many things I want to say to him. So many. I have even nicely phrase out things that I want him to know. I have even wanted to tell him that I have put in serious thought to marry him. One might say that is a really stupid thought to have on a four months relationship. I say, this is how much I love him.

Don't get me wrong here. There are still many things in my mind that sometimes give me the impulse to just tell him how I feel. But, it is not what I tell him, or what action he takes that matter. It is, in the end, our happiness that matters.

This is rather a long and boring post. But words from my heart. For now, I do not know if I can stop loving him. For now, I still can't see myself being with another guy. Will keep updating, and share all that I learn here. =)

A very beautiful song that speaks part of my heart out.

Jasminekpk

2010-08-12T20:32:00.001+08:00

good bye

funny sh*t

2009-09-04T09:42:00.001+08:00

who says we are old and dirty?

2009-07-10T09:13:00.002+08:00

who says old and dirty are the only words to discribe beggars?

good sense of humour, arent' they?

Award Winning Shoes

2009-06-28T18:36:00.005+08:00

yesh ladies and gentlemen ...

i would like to proudly present

the award winning converse shoes ...

... that won ...

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*drumrolls*

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*drum still rolling*

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*drum rolling on the climax*

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*drum st.. errr ... fuck the drumroll lah*

The Most Creative Design on Samsung Star Search

ze award winning shoes

ze prizes ...

which includes a Samsung U4 ..

2GB USB & MP3 player + radio + voice recording

yes, damn cool

AND

RM 500 cash voucher that can be used at any local converse outlet ..

=(

me no converse friend ... me no speak converse ...

what?

can't get enough of my shoes?

hoho. thought so.

*p/s: i know my shoes are not nice and i'm over rating my shoes. don't even take the trouble to tell me how ugly they are. Peace*

fear

2009-06-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

I love listening songs with emotional lyrics
especially break up songs or i miss u songs
i can't help but to feel them
as though i am literally going through the pain as sung by the lyrics

想回到过去，式着抱你在怀里
i wish to go back to the past, and try to hold you back in my arms
(回到过去, by jay chou)

this always reminds me of my 1st breakup
i always blamed myself for not being good enough and made things end
i always hoped to undo some mistakes
i always hoped to go back to the past ..

when did we fall apart, or did you lie from the start
( unbeautiful, by leslie roy)
when i sing these lyrics, they were real!
i am asking you, you and you..!
what did i do? was it me?
if it wasn't me, then please do not ever leave me hanging with this question
"what made me unbeautiful?"

todays the day i pray that we make it through
(fall to pieces, by avril lavigne)
trust me, i do understand the lyrics ..
coz i've been there hunnie ...
the feeling of being helpless was consuming
coz the feeling of your loved one slipping through your fingers no matter how hard u grasp with ur tiny little fingers threw all your courage away ..
yes, i know ...
coz i've been there hunnie

but why?
i have no reason to be in pain
i enjoy my singlehood, i have supportive friends who love me ...
of all emotions, why pain?
of all songs, why sad songs?

it is because i have been through ...
the pain ... how should i even start to pen this down
although i've walked away from the past and left the pain
but the scar remains ..
and it burns once in a while
just to remind you it's existance
just to tell you not to fall on your face
just to keep you away from another scar

so keep singing, emotional songs
so keep burning, permanent scars

jasminekpk

entertainmenttt

2009-06-23T18:37:00.002+08:00

owh welll

i am pretty buzy lately ..
planning meet ups with friends, working for dad, sleep, trying hard not to sleep, and letting my imagination run wild (its good for creativity k)

ne ways ,...
while i'm still in the midst of persuading myself to upload those pics ..
here's something tht will definately entertain u all

haha ...
told'ya its good didnt i?
now stop drooling

Samsung Star Search 2009

2009-06-20T15:18:00.003+08:00

hello people

yesh yesh ..

i'm not dead and still aliveee

good to know tht?

anyways...

thousand apologies to everyone for not updating my blog for almost a decade

haha!

will update more on samsung star search 2009 soon ya

when i get my camera back from my brother's gf

*wink*

hugs

cheers,

jasminekpk

i vote earth!

2009-03-24T11:39:00.002+08:00

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youtube at INTI COLLEGE

2009-02-26T14:41:00.003+08:00

try typing

http://www.youtube/

using inti's computers

bloody hell ...

u'll see this

mch .....

phothoshopmeplease ....

2009-01-07T18:33:00.006+08:00

how do think this girl' will appear in photo?

surprise?

scroll down ..

notice how her chin is sharpen, skin whitten, and eyes widen ...

with photoshop existing ..

who need plastic surgeries to win missfacebook?

do i? or do i?

2008-12-26T16:19:00.002+08:00

there is this feeling for you tht is secretly growing ..

BUT

do i like you for WHO you are ..

or

do i like you for WHAT you are ..?

or

am i simply flattered with u appreciating me??

There's only two types of guys out there

Ones that can hang with me,

and ones that are scared

So baby, I hope that you, came prepared

I run a tight ship, so beware

britney - circus

MERRY XMASSS!

2008-12-25T15:29:00.003+08:00

well ...

the main reason why i'm blogging her is not really coz of xmas ..

it coz ...

I JUST FOUND JONATHAN IN THIS AD!

(the dude in standing by the mini cooper)

and i was led to this ad

owh well..

this is FREAKING funny!!!

2008-12-17T10:09:00.004+08:00

i like this pic the most!!!

LOL

how do think they look like before shaving?

NGEK NGEK ngek

so ...

2008-12-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

i just went out

with

him ...

it was quite casual and relaxing

^.^

HAPPY BDAY MOMMY!!!

2008-12-05T01:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BDAY MOMMY ...!

hope u like the watch

from sis and i!

celebrated at kinsahi, a jap restaurant

love this place

love the food even moreee ..

new neW nEW NEW !!!

2008-12-04T10:28:00.002+08:00

daddy have been really generous lately

new shoessssss

and

a new com ..

too lazy to take a pic of my new com

as it'll make me look even more bimbo-ish

DON'T WE JUST LOVE THE SMELL OF NEW STUFF?

happy happy

i know i freaking owe you lovely people some posts k ..

will update as soon as possible k?

need to get some things on track 1st

i miss ...

2008-11-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

somehow ...

the feeling of missing inti college flowed in me ...

i miss messing around with xiang

i miss pretending to be library girl with chris

i miss making them guys do silly faces

most of all. i miss everyone.

(sorry dailou, don't have ur pic)

don get me wrong.

i'm LOVIN my holidays!!

chester's farewell

2008-11-22T23:19:00.005+08:00

a free kiss for the boy whos leaving to ny

i know

i think he is lucky too

the guys

(am i the only one who thinks zack seriously needs a hair cut?)

i always make the guys look good

my very hot new friend

florence

well. we were obviously the reason why m.o.s was heaty

(tee hee hee. blush)

stupid zack tht tried so hard to ruin our pics

nah. heres ur shot with florence

samuel and moi.

i doono why. but i like this pic.

don't get me wrong. its the pic. not the guy

Intians

someone's mr. Z

2008-11-22T23:16:00.001+08:00

answer:

dancer

since nobody got it right ..

better luck next time !!

reasons for me to M.I.A

2008-11-09T16:02:00.011+08:00

bz meeting people

bz being daddy's girl

and bz having fun

DAMN I LOVE HOLIDAYS!!!

AND I LOVE U TOO

mwahhhhhh

SO I WORKED TODAY ...

2008-11-09T16:02:00.008+08:00

AND YOU, MY READERS, YESH YOU

are given a task

figure out whats that job based on the picture above

you all have 5 days

will announce the answer on thursday

and

winenrs can claim a free chap fan from me

wheeee

fitting room adventure

2008-11-09T16:02:00.007+08:00

every wonder

why it takes forever for girls to change in changing room?

wonder no more because super jasminekpk is here to give u an answer

*let me just narrate u through the scene*

two silly girls walked into the fitting room

and

started their adventure

"eh, this dress nice hor"

"yalor yalor"

"lets change. wheeee!"

"dengggg. why u lift ur kalatai ( arm pit in cantonese)"

"owh okok.trying to be sexy mar."

"eh. ur leg very sexyy. show the camera."

"now my turn to show my leg! pee weeet!"

"eh, lets act cool for the camera"

"machiiii. act cool. not hide from the camera"

"owh okok. gaga"

"now let's be sugar sweeeeeet"

"=)"

"eh. now let's change another outfit"

"okok. omg, this is so fun"

"eh. i look like bond girl in this dress hor"

"yalor yalor"

"eh. let's put on a silly face la"

" errrrrrr. k la k la. =.="

"okay. this outfit is getting boring."

"yea weih. lets change"

"omgggggg. i like thisss dresssss!!!"

"i like this top tooooo!!!"

*both scream in joy*

"eh. i think u should try to fix ur hair for this pweety dress"

"but how?"

"let me help u"

"eh, we r here damn long d. let's change and go"

"okok"

"one last picture"

"=)"

"eh, i was fixing my hair la. why take? AGAIN AGAIN!"

"okay okay. now we seriously have to go d"

"gagaga"

"one more picture la"

"go die la. no. time to go home"

OMG! tht ring on your finger ...

2008-11-03T09:08:00.004+08:00

attended sook yi's wedding

i think this banner is seriously damn cute

(to my future husband: sayanggg, i want 1 too k for our wedding. tee hee hee)

ze princess and ze sister, elvy

the bride and groom.

awwwww. ain't tht soooo sweet?

performance prepared by kote girls

=)
(to my kote ji mui: i want 1 too okay? for my wedding. ngek ngek ngek)

receiving their blessings in the form of $$

us and the spotlight of the day

their dreamy room

love their wedding pic on the wall. looks like a poster of a movie to me.

tee hee. right?

its after finalssss!

2008-11-01T13:12:00.006+08:00

first of all ...

i know this post arrived a later then it should

nyehhhh. bz mar

anyhow.

this post is all about last day of college, gay craziness, lots and lotsa fun!

on halloween, we dress up to be scary ...

... or we pretend to be scary ....

but the cherry on top of halloween is not just the costume ..

but ..

the fun we get from scaring people!

(can you spot the ju-onn in this pic)

halloween toy that is as scary as dai lou

ATTENTION:

the pictures below are all 18sx rated

if you are under 18,

leave this site or watch under parent's permission

what distinguishes INTI'S MALE ??

they lick

they squeeze

they kiss

they all love sticks

they give you oral service

(can you spot v.g?)

the (proud) gays

the (hot) bi

the effect of overdose on gay fun

walaaa.

see u guys next sem

will missssssss you all

if i were a boy ...

2008-10-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

If I were a boy I think I could understand

How it feels to love a girl I

swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her

Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

Cause he’s taken you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back

Say its just a mistake

Think I’d forgive you like that

If you thought I would wait for you

You thought wrong

if i were a boy - beyonce knowles

womanizer ...

2008-10-23T18:34:00.002+08:00

i've been a lil bz lately ..

and will be until finals is over ..

so at the mean time ...

i found u guys this vid to take up the heavy task of entertaining my dear readers

you are finally 18!!

2008-10-20T14:54:00.002+08:00

this is insane!

2008-10-17T18:32:00.003+08:00

i'm going crazy ...

the heart persuades doing what i want.
the heart says wait.
wait for him.
wait for his call.
wait for his messages.
wait

the brain debates doing what i should do.
the brain says do not wait.
he is not going to mesage you
he is not going to call you
he is not coming back
don't wait, silly

i pretend i'm not waiting.
i pretend

edit:
i'm alright now. i just need new obsession.
don't worry.
i'm ok. seriously!
i can still take a few more shots.
=)
but i will still miss u. the possitive way

trapped

2008-10-17T15:54:00.001+08:00

yeah ..

how to do so

when i don't even dare to trust you anymore

lies

2008-10-17T00:14:00.003+08:00

" ... baby i will wait for you, coz i doono what else i can do ..."
eliot yamin

" ... u mean to me what i mean to u ... .. and i will never try to deny you are my whole life ..."
chris brown

" ... its not over tonight, just give me one more chance to make it right ..."
maroon 5

and many more ...

fuck all these songs. they make me wanna puke.
those words are undoubtly beautifully arranged
but for me, those are more like promises that will soon be broken

i've heard promises that were perfectly sentenced ..
but they all end up in no where but in my broken heart ..
i prefer more like

" ... when you're gone, would you even turn to say :"i don't love you like i did yesterday""
my chemical romance

" ... your love is a lie ..."
simple plan

" ... and the award for the best liar goes to you, for making me believe that you could be faithful to me ..."
Rihanna

relationship?
its none more than a promise of commitment that is mostly made to be broken

so,
how many beautiful lies have you told?
and
how many promises have you broken?

freshlook model pt. 2

2008-10-14T09:21:00.006+08:00

as i promised in my previous pose ..

i'm here now with loads and loads of pixies!

so let me flow u through today's post by introducing the MODELS MODELS SEKALIAN

1st. the very fun chui yi

2nd. the very very stylish ms Jenvine

3rd. the 'don't f with me' mr shaun krisna

4th. the very very macho mr. Jason

5th & 6th. mr. nick and mr. fareez

(sorry guys, din take pics of u guys. >.<>

7th. the freshlook grand winner ms. yiyin

(no pic. heh heh. sorry)

8th. the very very very very very very very hot MOI!

(hahahahaha. pheee weeeet!)

of course besides the models, there were so much more people that made tht show a successful 1.

and so i would like to shout out loud and thank

mr runway coach

thank you for being so patient on us. thank you for teachong us without temper. and thank you for accepting us, even tho we are not professionals (as shaun said, pasar malam models)

mr henessy guy

don't he just look so damn familiar? he was featured in one of the henessy advertisements and some local movies. not bad aye?

ms. nikki

A BIG BIG THANK YOU TO MISS NIKKI! thank you for informing us, mailing us, morning call us, reminding us .....

thank u!

we really love u!

and of course,

thank u to the whole cibavision tht have been so kind to us!

after the show, the very very kind miss Kim took us for TGI FRIDAY!
she is always an angel to us

while waiting for tgi, we gathered and danced (more like clubed) along some chun songs

the very very sinful friend mac and chesse

(this is the only food pic. haha. other? before the food even land properly on the table we've defaced it!)

the girls in barbie look
the models

walaaa!

thts all.

can't wait for 8th of november to be with Amber Chia!

FRESHLOOK MODEL =)

2008-10-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

did modeling for freshlook search 2008 today

IT WAS DAMN FUN!!

but its too late to update now.

*yawnnnnnnn*

but i'll show the sneakpeak for next post k?

tee hee hee

i took the trouble(s) to edit all these pics just for u guys k?

awwwww. i know. i love me too! <3

they gave us a goodie back

with our names on it!

very sweet of them =)

and one of the stuff in tht bag is..

...(hahahha) ...

2 months of daily colour contact lense supply!

left: food voucher to any of italianese, tgi fridays and apartment tht worth rm50

right: shopping voucher at sew&soul tht worth rm 200

US!

tee hee hee.

i promise i will update soon k?

i will ... t..r.yyyy....y....yy k?

the goodbye

2008-10-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

this time for real
he is leaving
as i chase him out of my door steps

i didn't want to say goodbye
as i want to keep the last threat
the last threat that leads me to u

i didn't want to say goodbye
because i want to kept u waiting
as the punishment for breaking my heart

i didn't wanna say goodbye
because maybe one day
maybe there is tht one day tht u'll turn back for me

this time for real
he is leaving
as i chase him out of my door step

HOW TO PEEL A BANANA?

2008-10-09T19:23:00.002+08:00

THIS VIDEO IS FKING HILARIOUS!!!

OMFG...

AND ITS A LIL GROSS TOO....

hahaha.

u know who is the best candidate to try this?

drums roll please

*JIANG*

its our very own and only

KHO CHUAN MENG!!

why?

hahahahahahaha

omg.

i'm gonna laugh to death

because u got the exact same underwear lor

from us

i knew it =)

2008-10-08T23:41:00.004+08:00

i know i'm crazy ...

but u r even crazier for still being my friend

owh well,

its our craziness tht brought us together right, chicka?

glad to have u back

mwah

the ex gf says

2008-10-06T20:25:00.003+08:00

i've been a very good(and hardworking, real hardworking) girl today..

i actually studied in the library 0_o
hah!
i know i know.
but i'm a lazy bum right? how is tht even possible?
haha.
u should totally give all the credits to khochuanmeng!

so

so

so

so ...

let's shift the spot light from my khochuanmeng to the main part of today's post

well.
guess who i saw on my way up to library?

guess what? its edgar's current gf
.
.
.
.
it was awkward
.
.
.

yeah, she gave me her hie-i-m-so-innocent smile
and, well, she is a sweet girl so i smiled back
and currently edgar got involved in an accident tht i heard was pretty bad
apparently he had to go through a brain surgery.
jeez. hope he is not a retard now.

"hey, hows edgar? i heard tht he got involved in an accident"
"*shocked* ........okay. ... i guess .." with her 'whytf-r-u-asking-about-my-bf-who-is-ur-ex-bf' look
"owwwwhhhh. okayyyyy."
"i mean ...... he is fine. i guess."

wtfffffff?

i was just being nice, lady.

u see...
i dont want to be a meannie ex gf tht laughs and cheers when her ex gets into an accident
i mean i can. but i don't
tho i still think tht accident totally serves him right =)
anyhow. i was being totally nice and without my bitchy claws
and wtf. u r afraid of me snatching ur bf which i dumped last year?

and fyi ...
edgar is one of the things tht i'm glad i threw out of my life
and u know what?
i feel bad for u. and i seriously pity u
dump him before he completely drain ur bank acc and feelings

wtf.
u should be glad my bitchy side is not taking charge of me.
because u don even stand a chance to be in line for competition
so.
good luck in serving ur perfect bf tht is getting demanding.
owh trust me.
his true colours are coming out soon.
if u r patient enough

ain't i nice?
la la la
i know.
i love me too

SENSEI, THIS IS FOR U MY MENTOR!

2008-10-05T01:45:00.004+08:00

my dear sisters,

WE DID IT!!!!

SENSEIII!!!

WE DID IT!!!!

just performed on a cultural night

and i would like to say

THANK U MY DEAR SISTERS

and everyone that made tht performance a huge success.

remember:

NO PRAYERS WILL GO UNANSWERED!

i've uploaded the vid of performance

well well,

if u r the yanming or likxiang type

(too lazy to watch the video)

i've snapped some pictures =)

enjoy !!!!

*P/S: it wasn't exactly a performance of skill. but more of a performance of spirit!*

its a whipped cream partay babay!

2008-10-03T16:59:00.003+08:00

on tuesday night,

we -meeshan, chloe, weiling, connie leefen and moi

attacked LEEYEN with a surprise bday party

and of course

LOTS AND LOTSA WHIPPED CREAM!!

wheeeeeeee!

*if u r wondering what happened to the picture in the center. HUHU. i actually zombiefied it. =)*

the moral of this event:

never ever be late for a surprise party tht involves whipped cream

because by the time it smash the bday baby..

its all melted into whipped milk

hor ... CHLOE??

(tsk tsk)

to V,

2008-09-29T16:38:00.003+08:00

erm ..
how should i start this ..

we've been friends for more than a century
and as the 1st friend of mine since standard 1 ..
i just still can't believe those words were actually out from ur mouth

i can't believe u can't wait for me to leave as soon as possible

but wait, aren't u my best friend?
at least tht is what u claimed IN FRONT of me right?
that is what u told me right?

my best friend who claimed i'm her best friend infront of me
told others tht she can't wait for me to leave?

so u r just like them,
being a double face and back stabber

i ...

i ...

i never see this coming u know
i thought u'll be the last person to say tht
and i thought patrick was the last person to betray my trust ..

you know what?
u got ur wish granted.
i'm leaving and walking out of your life for once and for all ..
and i'm leaving now

owh don't thank me
i'm just doing my best friend, or should i say ex friend a favour
thts what friends are for right?

i wish u the best in the future
and
take care

jasmine

her deceiving smile

2008-09-26T18:03:00.003+08:00

i think i'm breaking down ..

the past few days have not been good. not good at all

a series of unfortunate events weaken me day by day

i still cheer
i still laugh

i know i'm fooling everyone but myself

i want to cry

can i use your shoulder?

OMG! GUYS! LOOK WHAT I FOUND??

2008-09-24T01:15:00.002+08:00

mr inti chris. during enl 101 presentation

lik xiang, chris and moi

omg. my hair was so short! lol

well, kho is still same ham sap
the girls =)

kawai ne

ben's group.

they were doing some weird drink

walaaaa

memoriesss

lalala

*mel and ym, why aren't u guys in the pic?*

did i tell you how much i m in love with ARCHULETA??

2008-09-22T09:36:00.003+08:00

"Crush"

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

[chorus]
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But i know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Forever

[chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
(Hypnotized)
So mesmerized
(mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

[chorus]

Going away
Going away

did i tell u guys how in love m i now?
o...m....g.....
david ('s song) makes my kness go weak,
makes me go emotional

haha.
DAVID ..
WILL U MARRY ME?

WILL YOU?

WILL YOU?

DAVID: "okay! i will! i love u too me love!"

omg. *faint*

i know i know. my lebihness is probably killing u all.
tee hee hee hee.

but somehow ..
david reminds me of willy ling ..
and refreshed my memory of us fighting on msn ..
arg.
i hope things are going better for u =)

updates!

2008-09-21T01:31:00.004+08:00

attended their wedding last sunday ..
tee hee hee ..
i know i know ..
i'm late again
bz mar..
so to make it up to all my beloved readers
this is going to be a long pics post =)
(or maybe not tht long la... hehehe)
enjoy!

people tht i went with

1. cousin choi soon seng a.k.a soon soonthe click 5 wannabe

2. sister

poser sial ... just like her sister.

haha.

3. the king and the queen

4. me myself and i

as i said, my beloved readers ...

i've been really really bz late.

assignments that are mounting and tests tht are waiting

omg ..

i swear i look like this now

wei sim's farewell - 8.9.2008

2008-09-15T09:20:00.003+08:00

he claims tht i'm his 1st wife!

LOL

bye bye wei sim ...

will miss crapping and joking with u ...

tada !

my version of when i grow up

*will update more pics on this soon*

CSC IS BORING TOO!!!!!!

2008-09-15T09:16:00.001+08:00

mr ryan speaking in alien language,

thinking his powerpoint slides help...

u see ..

if csc is easy ..

and interesting ..

we wouldn't be camwhoring!

true?

its empty

2008-09-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

i don't know why
i can't help but to have the feeling of emptiness

finally, i got over patrick
maybe not completely 100% over
but at least i gathered myself back
and
i'm now able to spend my day without thinking about him
=)
thts great

i think thts the source of my emptiness
there is always someone filling up my heart
derrick, wilson, alvin, edgar, patrick ... ________
and now its empty

well,
i am still desperade for love
but
i'm definately not deperade for guys

i know i'm cool
=)
and lonely
=(
bahhhhhh

fuck csc (computer science)

2008-09-08T22:01:00.001+08:00

CCB
CAN ANYONE TRANSLATE THIS MARS LANGUAGE FOR ME?
WHOEVER SAID THT CSC IS EASY ...
YOU MUST BE A BIG FAT LIAR..!
ARGGGGGGGGGG

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN MINGGGGGG!

2008-09-07T14:21:00.001+08:00

nah yanming!

here's the post i promised u.

la la la la ...

tadaa daaaaaa.

i took all the troubles to edit and beutify ur pics

touched???

damn yeng right??

happy birthday in advance

and

may all ur wishes come true ya

all furnished babay!!!

2008-09-05T16:19:00.000+08:00

as u all can see ..
my blog is furnished and layered with new layout =)

nice?

nice?

no?

yes?

hell yes, it is nice!
i spent like 2 days to learn and change the alien like html codes k

and yes, i would like to receive comments on my blog's new look =)

owh yea,

i know i know .. the header is annoyingly ugly right?
will get a much better 1 soon ...
just bare with it k? =)

have a nice day ya people

i'm bored and got nothing to do now. and this comic is funny and somewhat true =)

2008-09-04T10:54:00.001+08:00

zack the GENTLEMAN

2008-09-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

well, as u guys can read from the title itself ...

today i'm gonna talk about zack =)

yesh, the inti zack ..

he was kind enough to be my victim of the day to buy me lunch ..

only after i introduced him *ahem*

haha

enjoy the food from tgif =)

trust me. this is the best appetizer ever.

fried mac and cheese =)

zack's steak

and i have no idea at all why he said tht to his steak

mine =)

and tadaaadaaaaaaaaaaa......

the dessert of the year =)

fudgie brownies ...

and its making me drool now

thats pretty much about the food we had.

haha. lets just don touch the bill part.

i definately owe u a big big thank u and bah kut teh =)

and LADIES ...

zack is still single and very much available =)

he is tall

he is joker

he is my friend?

LOL

sorry dude. i think i fail at being ur pr.

opps.

out of the right mind

2008-09-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

do you feel like being a retard sometimes because its just simply so fun?

or at least, act like you've no mind just to celebrate ur joyish mood?

no?

well, obviously he does ...

happy being retard people

owh yes it's ladies night

2008-08-30T12:02:00.000+08:00

went maison on thursday with ma babes and darlings
=)
it wasn't a great night...
but a fun 1 ..

chloe, my body trainer

elvy, my best friend, my sister, my comrades ...

owh yea,

i got a surprise for everyone =)

presenting the phamplet for freshlook search 2008!

yeap, the expression on ur face now was exactly how i looked like when i saw tht too.....

dilemma debate

2008-08-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

the brain knows that it won't happen
but the heart always wait for a change

stupid guys, please go far far away ...
and leave us alone

itunes playing- take a bow,RIHANNA

happy birthday to ....

2008-08-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to you, ....~~

dear kor(brother),

its ur 22nd birthday. haha.

damn. u're old.

but don worry kor.

even if u r 88,

with all the wrinkles on ur forehead and neck as the result of dota stress,

i'll still love u =)

from,

me, your super hot and cute and pretty and .... ect. sister

its late here in m'sia now.

u have a great one in ny k?

may all ur b'day wishes come true

owh btw, since u will be making wishes,

please do wish 1 for me too PUH LEEEEESE

any one on the wishlist will do =)

mwahhhhh

backside itchyyyyy

2008-08-25T15:32:00.000+08:00

"girl ar, come let's go jogging."
"mmmmm." still rolling in blanket.
"come come. wake up! you're the one who asked me to go jogging. you dowan to go now?"
"yea..a..a..hh. d, i'm very sleepy. today rest"
"CANNOT! must go jogging! wake up!" (pulls my leg out of the blanket)

i got up and looked at the clock.
6.45a.m

(the night before)

"eh d ar, tomorrow go jogging k?"

you know what are cases like this labeled as?
THE BACKSIDE ITCHY. sendiri angkat. dai sei.

and because of this. daddy wants to jog with me every morning.
breath in deeply. sighhhhhhhhhh.

seriously damn dai sei. (knocks forehead)

sugar before bed

2008-08-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

its 1.20 am now ..
and i'm sitting here blogging. yawning

my holiday have been boring. monochromatic.
everyone is going out. having fun. enjoying life.
as for me. sigh.

i don't feel like going out.
i don't feel like seeing anyone.
i don't feel like dating anyone.
i don't feel like going on9.
i don't feel like doing anything.

which pretty much explains why my mind is filled with crap.
and people that i should put aside.

i think i'll be taking belly dancing class.
i need new addiction.
i need a better life.
la la la.

good nite people

noooo! don't leave meeee!

2008-08-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

( if you doono who is shermaine, u can check the cbox on the left =))

everyone is leavinggggggg.

to jboy:

dear mr. johnnny sex!! please do take good care of yourself k? and don't forget our *ahem* korean siblings deal ya. *wink wink* enjoy the weather there that is chilling ya

to shermaine:

i know u r most probably scratching ur head thinking that this is a joke. NO, ITS NOT!

i miss u babe. miss the fun we had during our fights. tho i din really fight back.

neway, wanna thank u for adding colours to my blog. and keeping patrick off my mind a that one whole week.

my blog always welcome u with open arms k? =) and please do visit us often ya

to me:

damn pk. its time to sleep.

nitez people.

finals is finally OVERRRR!

2008-08-16T10:37:00.000+08:00

yawnnnnn. its 10.37 am now.
and i'm extremely sleepy.
my panda eyes is the best proof ... 0.0

anyways ...
gonna post some pictures before my blog is announced dead.

american historyyy: class project

kyoko kozumi (moi) and john jacobs

bill gates the asian (lik xiang) and the historian(?)

and finally. my official girlfriend =)

vian oh vian. u know i effing heart u right??

enia khong and jassica albaa... LOL

lets break it down

2008-08-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

he said :" i'm so~so~so~sorry. i'm so~so~so~sorry. i didn't mean to break your heart. look baby, i'm a heartbreaker. i'm a heart breaker. i'm a heart breaker."

"your a heart breaker"

"i'm a heartbreaker"

love this song.

you're a heartbreaker.

this is crazy!!!!

2008-08-11T20:53:00.000+08:00

THIS IS A MUST MUST SEE!!

TRUST MEEEE~~~~!

SCARY AYE?

OMGGGG!

2008-08-11T18:04:00.000+08:00

browsed through my friendster
and i found out something that seriously dropped my jaw

my highschool friend
whos like really really pretty
is now married, at the age of 19
WITH ONE BABY!

it kinda striked me
coz ....
well .. i never plan to get married until i am .. say 27?
like yeah!
how am i gonna feed my baby now when i can carely feed myself?

owh shit.
i have american history tomorrow.
still can gossip here.
huhuhu
girls mar
wish me luck ya =)

then never ending rocky road

2008-08-10T23:03:00.001+08:00

my heart is feeling so weird right now ..
i just did what i should've done weeks ago

i just can't stop thinking ...
i just can't stop looking back ..

my heart is weak ..
i should've been more careful in handing my fragile heart
after all the heart breakings
although i manage to put it back from pieces
but the scars still hurt

the scars ..
burning once in while
is now hurting me mroe and more frequently
it affecting me more and even more than usual
it affects my sleep
at the same time it affects me when i don't
it makes me emotionally unstable
at the same time it makes me numb
it makes me wanna be stronger
at the same time it makes me wanna cry
it makes me wanna move forward
at the same time it makes me look behind
it makes me wanna take good care of my it(my heart) with plasters
at the same time it makes me wanna stab it till the pain goes away

my emotion ...
how should i put it in words?
my feelings ...
how should i portray a picture of it?
my thoughts ...
how can i make it a melody?

i doono what is going on in my head
i doono what is wrong with my heart

finals is a day from now
and i have not even started reading
i just can't stop waiting ...
waiting for what i'm trying to give up ..

=(

2008-08-08T23:44:00.001+08:00

i think ...
i think i've lost the ability to trust ...

you love whattt?

2008-08-06T18:34:00.000+08:00

what?
you love that someone?
and you really wanna be with that someone?

have you ever experienced this
when that someone that u claim u love or like
expresses his/her love to someone else?
how will you feel?
owh well ..
sad? angry? betrayed?
nahhh.
then you don't love that person you claimed you love

when you love someone, with your whole heart ...
you will place him/her before you
you will wish that he/she gets her happiness
you will want him/her to be happy

when you have expectations towards someone
that is not love
when you want that something from someone
that is not love
you just want to fulfill your own needs. fullstop.

=)
i'm never happier to know that you are happy
and please do continue being happy
and all of you out there
haha. bergembira lah

have you ever?

2008-08-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

have you ever wish you can turn back time and remake ur decision?

i think most of us does ...

i do too

dear vivian ...

i wish i never did break your heart that way ..
tho it was something that happened 2 years back
but we both know the scar stays forever ..
i wish i did not choose him over you
i wish i did not hurt you
i wish i can erase all that happened

i sincerely thank you
thank you for willing to accept me as your best friend
i sincerely thank you
thank you for willing to accept my weakness
i sincerely thank you
thank you for not doubting me when the whole world did
i sincerely thank you
thank you for always being there for me

vivian ..
I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!
<3

afterall we've been through ..
i'm very very glad that we are still besties =)

i want to be loved ....

2008-08-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

... but i can't

i wanna love ...

thank god i still can

let me love you<3

guess what i found in my friendster inbox???

2008-07-31T00:19:00.000+08:00

dear...

i know that im wrong coz today that means 2/9 i jz
left the school like that n went to cyber....
im sorry coz i din walk u home...
mayb
im not a good boyfriend...
i m bad i know ..

i donno y i said like that....
i jz felt that im really wrong n need to say sorry
SORRY.......

i really don wanna go wan that time...
actually i wanna go in the evening wan with sathes..
then this morning at school they planned edi..
n they force me to go....
so....sorry ler...

i know im wrong.....
i know im wrong.....
i know im wrong.....
i know im wrong.....
i know im wrong.....
i know im wrong.....

ngo ci cho ler...

SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY..............

n i jz wanna say i love u so much....!!

you know you sent this. just wanna say tht, u've always been the sweetest still
owh yea, btw, its my highschool puppy love
which is the sweetest memory i have of all relationships tht did not work out
the guy who sent this?
don worry derrick, i won tell them who u r
=)
u r still sweet. tee hee hee.
miss those innocent days ...

IT'S MY LOVE'S BDAY!!!

2008-07-30T11:40:00.001+08:00

our love starts from no where but the

FITTING ROOM!!

look what i found! tee hee. i looked like a cute-doll-wannabe!

haha!

zara. us. and the camera.

us last year. i love how our love grows =)

owh wait.

there is more

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN MY LOVE!!!

i'm still looking for a macho stripper for u ya

ngek ngek

mwahhh

i am winner

2008-07-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

many things happened lately in a very short period of time
in a blink of an eye everything changed
but i'm stil standing
because this time, i'm gonna win

to everyone tht put me through a hardtime
to everyone tht once put me down
to everyone tht gave me trouble
to everyone tht broke m heart
i wanna say THANK YOU =)

because of you, i'm stronger today
THANKS =)

its getting harder and harder to breath

2008-07-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

and i meant it literally
sigh ..
exercise is what i need ... i guess
XD

thanks guys

2008-07-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

" shannn ... i'm still thinking about him ..."
" phui kuan! you should be glad that all these happened! u planned to be with him right?"
"yes"
"then u should feel relieved! imagine if all these happens only after you both coupled? he says he love u in the mouth and? he ended up with some other girl. u'll be leaving to the states and u he might one day leave u coz he just need someone! if u both are fated ... no matter who he is with right now, no matter who u r with right now, 5 years or even 10 years from now, you guys will still end up together. pray for his happiness with this girl. i know one day, u will the one tht can share ur dreams and walk towards it with u."

"vian ... i feel like going back for him and get him back"
"why? i thought u r over him d?"
"its not fair. i'm not given a chance ... i know i'm better"
"u r better. so? fine. go back to him then. if u want ur karma to repeat over and over again. THEN GO FOR IT and be my guest"

"je, why do u like him so much? are u tht into him?"
"i don't know. i just thought i could start one stable and slow relationship with him. i was hoping for him to come back from aus, seriously. i was ... waiting. i really want to give us a shot. he just seem like the right guy. but i guess all tht happened is just trying to tell me tht we are not meant to be, at least for now. "
"but u were dating yu jin right?"
"i owe him tht date, since last year. u know, between yu jin and i, there have always been sparks. i just din know things can turn out this complicating. owh well. its over d la. je is seriously tired of all these. if the right guy is him, then i'm sure nothing can stop us from being together. =)"

"omg, jasmine. u r not over him yet?"
" owh well, getting to it. it takes time la"
"r u like tht into him?"
"well, i doono. but i weren this emotional when it happened because i was real bz back then. have u ever experienced this, tht u were so bz to handle ur emotions and just when u think everything is over, ur emotions float out of the surface again?"
"yeah, i've had tht b4. nvm darling. we should just get u out and meet some new people."

don worry about me =)
i might be emotionally unstable at times ..
this is because i am on the way moving on =)
i know i can do it

this will be the last time i talk about it
this will be the last time i mention about it
this will be the last time i whine about it
this will be the last time i post about it
this is the last time

i'm gonna go out and meet as many people as i can
so ..
haha
the line for dating miss kpk is open now ... (as if la got people wanna date me XD)

have a nice day people

i realized ...

2008-07-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

i won continue hoping tht u guys will break up so tht i stand a chance.
instead, i wish tht u guys will last forever so tht u don have to go through break up.
so tht u don have to go through the pain i'm going through now.
i wish she is much better than me so tht i know u r in better hands?
one last thing again ...
promise me u'll be happy.
i really want u to be happy =)

i swear to god this is damn fking funny

2008-07-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

bad day? no worrie =)

superwoman pk is here to save the day =)

these 2 videos are must watch. and i mean MUST WATCH

if they can't make u laugh, i'll shut down my blog. i mean it

but don la purposely tahan dowan to laugh k.

as we all know, laughter is the best medicine

so i'm here presenting u best medicine of all ...

la la la

high school love

2008-07-22T12:54:00.000+08:00

dear people, as promised ..

i've finished editing pics from pool session with my friends ... FINALLY *phew*

finals is coming sooooooooon ...

sigh ...

can feel the books hanging around my neck ...

jasmine, kuok loong and vivian
she is into kissing hot babes lately =) la la la

i love u too chicka

owh well ... sometimes i'm just too irresistable

the christian and the barbie =)
my besties of besties
i know. she was attacking him. told ya she is into kissing hot ... babes?
owh yes, we are beautiful, no matter what they said

owh well. the perfect pose =)

why do u think my nick name is *cough* SNOOKER QUEEN *cough*

haha. i know i know. don hate me coz u ain't me XD

have a nice day people

a fun day =)

2008-07-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

a sneak peak of my next post =)

totally had fun today ...

especially when playing pool with my highschool friends =)

xoxo

jasmine

awwww. how sweet. but i don trust u anymore

2008-07-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

"awwww, u ditched her for me? how sweet. so when will u ditch me for other girl?"

"u r really sorry that u lied? i'm really sorry too. so save ur lies for the next girl sweetie"

"you wanna fix things? don worry darling. we are all fixed. we are done"

to all the girlfriends out there,

if he can cheat on u once, he can always cheat on u for the second and third time.
if he can lie to u once, u can always lie to u the second and third time.
if he can break ur heart once, he can always break ur heart for the second and third time.
if he can give u excuse once, he can always give excuses for the second and third time.
if he can treat u as a booty call once, he can always treat u as a booty call for the second and third time.
owh no they never quit.
why do u think smokers keep lighting their ciggarates after they swore they'll quit?
you deserve better. we don't need another asshole to ruin our colourful life.
i don need another edgar to ruin my life.

so to all the heartbreakers out there,
u can mess with any chicks u want. u just don mess with me.
u can fk any girl u want. u just don't fk with me.
owh no. i don trust u anymore.
i <3 single.

i <3 barbie

2008-07-14T19:47:00.001+08:00

xoxo,

jasmine kpk

i am so boreddddddd

2008-07-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

college is getting more and more boring ..
no cute guys, no flirting, no crazy shopping sessions ...
owh darn ...
can't imagine me over the states .. *deep sighhh*
but at least over there got white guys and koreans ..
which i think is enough to keep me well entertained =)
anyway ...
are u bored now?
no worries coz pk is here to save the day!!!
*imagine me arrive in sexy version of superman outfit*
*
*
*
*
*
"i am here to save you from your boringness. for this, u, whoever tht receive my offer, owes me subway sandwiches... muahahaha. i know u love me. i love u too"

seriously, try playing this game ..

and

screw the japanese

按這裡進入游戲

the mega post ----- INTI'S top BACHELOR

2008-07-13T17:31:00.000+08:00

the post tht i've wasted years just to finish editting all the pics ...
so ladies and gentlemen ... i would like to proudly introduce u

*drum rolls ......*

inti subang's top bachelorrrr!!!! *crowd cheerssssssss*

(names are randomly arranged, not by popularity rating)

up 1st ...

Mr. very very annoying!!

brief intro: mr. stlx is famous for his mouth. no, i doono if he can kisses well. but he can definately talk. when and i mean damn damn damn a lot.

why he is hot: sometimes he can be the darling, sometimes he can be the pain.

next, mr vc!
brief intro: basicly ...... i doono much about vc. *giggle* erm ... but i know he got a very sexy brain ( as in smart la dungu)

why he is hot: i told u d. i donno much about him!

let's not forget my bbf, mr melwinoooo

brief intro: mr. melwinooooo. the type of guy that never hides the truth and is a very very very very good motivator. and he is smart too. and SINGLE.

why he is hot: start speaking english with him and u'll fall for him instantly. i doono if tht works for gays tho. lol.

next in the list ... mr sinyu!!!

i mean ... MR YAN MING!!!

*sorrry la yan ming. don't have ur pic. =P*
brief intro: he looks exactly like this pic.

why he is hot: he plays guitar and he is featured in DORAEMON.

and coming up next ...

our one and only CHRIS TAN!!

brief intro: he is from johor. and he is very self obssessed.

why he is hot: he won mr.inti? DUH. plus he just permed his hair. ^.^

and, haha! the guy tht shares some of my blood

(my cousin la dungu) mr. choi soon seng!! brief intro: he is my cousin.
why he is hot: because he is my cousin. he plays soccer. very well. state representative i think. huhu. *proud*

up next, the guy tht we've pretty much seen him on tv

yeap, he is the kinda charming dude tht appeared on milo ad

mr, mani mogan!!!! brief intro: basicly i doono much about him too. but if u girls/ guys wanna look for someone to party with, or to flirt with ^^, he is the guy =)
why he is hot: coz he appeared on tv ad?

next on the list ...
the very very sex johnny sex!!

mr. Johnathan tannn!brief intro: he is the current president of aup society. owh yea, he swims =) he is as tann as ...... er chocolate? yea. almost there.

why he is hot: because he is sex!!!!!!

and lastly, mr know it all

a.k.a
dai louuu

mr. kho chuan meng!! brief intro: he is from a very smart family. and he drives a kelisa.

why he is hot: why do u think i call him mr. know it all? he repairs car, cooks, does the laundry, does the house works, sews, studies ......

special award for rich facial expression ...

and the award goes toooo

mr. sandesh!!!!

ta daaaaaa!!

this is the end of the list!

want to know them? i charge rm 50 per contact number ^^

drop me a comment ya =)

haha!

2008-07-10T07:44:00.000+08:00

i think i fail to be good blogger coz i have no consistency
huhu
owh well, my dear readers ...
i'm gonna be really bz lately .
plus i'l preparing a mega post =)
huhu
will be out soon!

at the mean time, take care ya

jasmine

fuck

2008-07-07T09:14:00.000+08:00

i am feeling shitty now
and i don't like it
i should've moved on ... and not falling apart ...
the evil and selfish side of me is making me miserable ...
i wanna let go ...
" ... it gonna hurt while it heals too ..." Leona lewis -Better in time
i wish u the best ...

farkkkkkkk

2008-07-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

"Eh, phui kuan. din see u for quite a while d. u got fat d la.(stares at my stomach). so this is how u prepare urself for iti ball?" ChrisEng,Inti
"Eh girl ah, look at ur tummy. so cute" Mom, TheQueen
"omg, phui kuan!! NI FEI LIAO. ni kan ni de du zi!! (u got fat d.Look at ur tummy!!)"Someone from SGM
during mamak session
"eh, got tummyd still dare to eat?" Ass friend

well, surprisingly, i got all those in the same day, yesterday
soooooooooo
i've made up my mind
i will be working out for this whole week
ANDDDDDDD
i will be a vegetarian for one week. ONE WHOLE WEEK!!!
hmmmp! see la people. see
i'll turn over a new leaf.huhu

i hate myself ...

2008-06-27T14:16:00.000+08:00

i hate myself for my bz-body ness ...
i hate it when i'm good at stalking people online, on fb to be specific ...
i hate it when i found her ..
and now?
i fucking know her name.
CCB
and i'm damn fking emo now.
and my itunes is playing this same old song over and over and over and over again ..
omfg. i'm using itunes. fuck. i'm so messed up.
I JUST WANNA LET THINGS GOOO
and i will let u go.
fuck. PHUI KUAN. stop this shit nowwwwww!

EDIT: i took me a nap and a chat with eric to remove my emoness. eric is right. i deserve someone who can provide me undevided love. and i guess tht is the only thing i can't get from u. i wish u both the best in future. =) lucky u.treasure her.

good bye princess fiona ...

2008-06-24T14:35:00.000+08:00

princess fiona left to singapore to further her studies ..
had a family farewell dinner for her
well .... i'm missing u already ..
tho i don really like u pinching and hitting me sometimes ...
but but ..
i still miss u =)
please do take care k?

princess jasmine from aladin and princess fiona from shrek =)

p/s: i'm not trying to say tht u look green and huge like fiona k. XDhope u'll like my lil gift. think of me whenever u use it k?
at the mean time, i found something really really cute from princess fiona's closet =)

huhuhu.

i know whats my next b'day gift ^^

throught the rain ...

2008-06-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

i know i will .... =)

vivian ... u will too.

self destruct ...

2008-06-22T08:38:00.000+08:00

what ever decision u make, u must be responsible for the consequences ..
its really funny and scary sometimes how life can eat u right back ..
just when i thought edgar was the last disaster in my love life ..
i never ever expected for something worse ..
or of course, i wasn't prepared for all tht is happening ..

i hate choosing. i've always hated choosing ...
i hate choosing only to buy one dress out of 2
i hate choosing only one cookie out of a basket
i hate choosing only one song out of a bunch
i hate choosing only one colour out of a rainbow
and
i hate the most having to choose in between 2 guys.

i remember telling my friend this
"if i were to be put into a situation where i have to choose between 2 guys, i'll give up, BOTH"

because i simply don't wanna hurt any party ...
and i hate it when the cliche is right
its easier said than done

in this case ... its way much easy to say, way much harder to do ...
how to choose?
they are both coming back and will be leaving???
i've already hurt one.
i hate myself for being so selfish.
i hate myself for not making a choice from the start
i hate how everything is hitting right back at my face
i hate myself for facing this shit ..

to patt:

i'm sorry for things to end this ugly. its not what we expected. certainly not what u expected. i guess i was just being in decial. denying the existance of my feelings. denying tht i was waiting. and most certainly, denying tht i care. i choose to be in denial coz i wanna avoid something like this. but for now, i've made my choice and u've made urs. there is no point turning back and look back at the past. we shall go along to where our choice lead us. (i sound so dramatic 0_o) i wish u the best in the future.
take care

to shinsuke:
don't worry. i've made my choice. don't think so much k?

ouchhh

2008-06-21T16:52:00.000+08:00

"to like someone is not to own him/her. but to wish them happy no matter it hurts you or not."

OI!! MANA UPDATE??

2008-06-19T17:31:00.000+08:00

i know iknow.
for the past few days whenever u guys come to my blog u guys will shout tht un ur mind right?
sorreeee la. been quite bz lately.
haha. thank you guys for not quitting on me =)
i've been bz-ing with

f'king american history midterm-9 chapters to stuff in ur heads k. each chapters includes at least 8 topics.
physics assignment
physics midterm - i hate my physics lecturer. she suck
student division meeting
kotekitai meetings
shinsuke sannn

well ... u can see how i'm multi tasking myself lately.

and now i'm blogging.. damn chun right? =)

will post up some real posts real soon. i promise k?

mwahhhhh

mommy, when i grow up i wanna be ...

2008-06-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

"dear son, what do want to be when you grow up?"
"mom. when i grow up, i wanna be a POLICEMAN for MALAYSIA"
"owh. wow. you make mommy proud. my sun is a person of justice! =)"
" no mom. i wanna be a policeman so that i can... *points are picture below*"

so, what do wanna be in the future my dear child? =)

shinsuke takei chan,

2008-06-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

anata no koto ga suki dayo

=)

should i?

2008-06-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

"u like him ..?"

" i doono ..."

"i think u do lor ..."

what should i do now??

i am seriously undecided
should i, as u said, make the best out of 3 months??
or
should i just bear with the pain now till i'm numb with it?

this is just so disturbing tht i can't even think other stuff!

i think i'm bubbly

2008-06-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

lemme ask u dear readers something
how to give 5 hugs in 1 seconds?

*think people think*

*think harder people*

1st, u hug the person u want to
then say out loud
"1!2!3!4!5!"
tht makes 5 hugs in 1 second!
i know. i'm smart. i do think so =) =)

self destruct

2008-06-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

this post is deleted by jasminekpk

me ... messy

2008-06-10T18:32:00.001+08:00

this post is deleted my jasminekpk

ques no. 1

2008-06-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

"since sex is known as the best sport ever, shall it be included into the olympics?"

please please do answer that question
anda boleh answer at the gossip board, or leave me a comment.

many things happened. will blog it out soon =)

famareee dinner!

2008-06-03T19:20:00.000+08:00

last sunday was nothing special
except for family dinner at italianese coz my voucher was about the expire
spent 10 buckets of saliva to get the king (daddy) to go for italian
well, the king is very asian-ish

the king's favourite dolls
can u see the light? ... or lights?

a quick peek of tht night's menu

mussel ... the hot dish of tht night. the king and the queen almost licked the plate
ze soup
waiter happily and willingly spreading pepper on moi's mee.

where the sister gets her looks frommoi, posing / eating/ pretending to eat
the famaree pic. with the maid.

sadly someone is missing

the king was basicly very much entertained throughout the dinner

he did afterall bring his favourite princess(es) out

until ...

he saw the bill ...

hehe

i still love u daddy!

happy father's day =)

i suck in editing

2008-05-26T19:52:00.000+08:00

i know ... ym and jboy look weird. solee la. i suck in editing. but i think mel pretty much owned tht body!!! WOOT!
wanted to edit them into this pic initially. and ym at ella's body. ^.^

but as can u all see. my editing skill is so impressive.

i think i'll just not show off to shrink u guys!!

p/s: SEE ym!!! who says i don love u?